because i care enough to try.
because when something matters to you, you will try.
no matter what.



wah how long havent i been here. ok la not yet a month since the last post. time passes quite fast, it's now week 9 of school and oh kns i already lost my matric card. dont ask me how or where cos i really dunno. it's lost. not misplaced, not forgotten and left somewhere. mysterioussslllyyyyy lost. so now i understand why recess week should be called project week instead. but then, other than ltb i didnt do anything much at all so i suppose i had a better recess week than other people who are like crazily stressing themselves out every day.

flashmob. oh my goodness i was determined never to learn the 'nobody' dance but am now forced to for the perf D: and for such a big event too. but nvm, it's a paid gig which works out well for me. can save more, and have more for paybacks/extra use. cos from experience, the freedom and ability to spend solves some problems, so what i can do to keep this going.. i will.

i can just stare at you forever
i can be here with you doing whatever
it's not the way you look that brings me to my knees
it's the way you look at me

awesome night out with ming (and his friends) dancing at phuture last night. actually was pretty apprehensive like there's always a lack of really asking me in the first place, and later on no sure decision so that makes it pretty hard to decide even if i rly do wanna go. but anyway it was a blast dancing tgt, seriously just not having to bother abt anything other than where we were, who we were with, and just having fun. whoohoo (:

anyway, i want to come up with this invention that's gonna rock the female world upside down. ladies, how many of you, at the end of an evening in heels desperately wish you had flats with you, or that you could just yank off your shoes and walk barefooted, cos your feet are killing you? (seriously i can walk run strut whatever in heels so i'm considered proficient but after 4hours of dancing in 5-inch heels last night, barefoot was so tempting) sooo, the guys have their soccer cleats with the removable studs?/spikes? so why cant we have heels with er, the removable heel? haha so at the end of the night, just remove the heel and voilaaaa you have flats! hahaha. it actually doesnt seem to work out based on the shape and curve of the shoe with heel and without, but that's what R&D is supposed to solve right. (eh angel, good twc idea? hahaha)

i'm damn bored at home. im supposed to be refining my part of the Hittite report but nobody actually longs to do work. right? i rather be bored slacking than be bored doing work, even if doing work is more productive. boo ):

oh ya, who wants to go school gym on tuesdayyyyyy im going to run :D
girliesssss who wants to watch movieS with me D:

it's just sad.

the climb up is pleasant,
but the down usually hits much, much harder

im looking at this ad on facebook and...

two-piece = bikini
one-piece = monokini???

hahahahahahhaa. ok if it's really true i just made a fool of myself.

is it that everyone is working super hard, or i am super slack? people seem to be like super 'on' about uni - work and readings and more work and more readings and projects and i'm still in the mentality that i'm supposed to be still easing into the system here. makes me wonder: if the right way is theirs, what am i doing here??

because i let myself be changed, i'm now finding it difficult to give the reaction i want to, that i once would have.

think it may be time soon.

pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!